Updated: Apr 3, 2020
On February 22, 2010....As someone swapped out my meth and shot me up with heroin.... I knew instantly something was not right as I fell flat on my face. I had a spiritual awakening that morning at 3:330am... that I no longer had to fight the demons of addiction alone. Many years I suffered as I was dying in silence! On occasion there was a silent cry for help in my head. Yet, I could not get the message for help to come out of my mouth until this spiritual awakening.
This moment in time as I broke the silence.. as I was dying that morning as I passed out inside a gas station. After waking up to the EMT... I refused going to the hospital then went to my car. Once inside I began screaming as I grabbed the steering wheel and sobbing, "God, I cannot do this anymore! I am sick and I do not want to live like this! I need your help! Then, I began to pray the sinner's pray, "Lord forgive me for all the nasty things I have done. Come into my heart. I believe that you died on a cross for me as you gave me victory through the power over death through your resurrection. I confess that you are Lord over my life." Immediately after saying that prayer
God gave me Exodus Chapter 17 allowing me to realizes that everyone gets tired. At times we
need others to help hold us up.
No matter how bound up in depression, suicidal thoughts, or addiction... There is hope. You simply start by breaking the silence. Exposing your hurts, habits, and hang ups. The important piece to
recovery is to allow others to walk along side of you such as getting a sponsor and accountability
partners and NEVER give up!